Bridezilla: (n.) A generic term used to describe a difficult, unpleasant, perfectionist bride who leaves aggravated family, friends and bridal vendors in her wake.
Today it happened. My first bridezilla breakdown. And before I go any further with this post, I should mention that it happened nothing like on that Oxygen TV show. There were no thick New Jersey accents or fake rinestoned fingernails involved.
It all started during a phone conversation with my Mother. [Who I doubt is reading this because I'm pretty sure that until a few weeks ago, she thought a blog was a piece of hard candy or something.] Her favorite thing to remind is "Allison this is your day." But I think she usually means to tag on the end of that "...BUT, its my money." Anyways. The point of this blog is not to document the words & actions of my breakdown, but to call myself out on being so shamefully quick to anger.
I think we all have a little Bridezilla in us, even though obviously we aren't all brides. But are not each of us sometimes difficult, unpleasant, perfectionists? Do we not all sometimes leave friends, family, and others around us in our wake of selfishness as we storm off to go find someone else who will listen to our trivial complaints?
Just a thought.
As I sat there realizing how quickly I had just gone from "estatic-blushing-bride-to-be" ...to..."someone-put-this-woman-in-a-straight-jacket"...I got to thinking. How is this in any way honoring God? The one who gave me this supportive family, this wonderful man, this relationship?
Growing up in my youth group, I was fortunate enough to have a Youth Pastor who made it one of his top priorities to instill this concept in me: Everything we do can be an act of worship. Even this stressful time of planning a wedding. I began to pray "God, show me how I can honor You in this process. Show me how to worship You in my wedding planning." After all...its not really my day. June 25, 2011 will be a day that the Lord will make. And we will rejoice and be glad in it. It will be His day.
These next 9 months can be a worship experience. I can honor God by the way I treat my family, my bridal party, my florist. I can honor God by keeping up with my school work as I plan this wedding. I can worship God by daily praising Him for the gift of relationships & love.
After this realization, slowly, the Bridezilla began to turn back into a Bride. A Bride who will undoubtably face more challenges, and probably a few breakdowns, in the future; but will strive to tackle them with a heart of worship.
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