- I turned 22! And before you ask...nope, I don't feel any older. My birthday was low-key, but included all the elements I could have asked for. Friends, family, & fiance'. I had a great time relaxing & celebrating. Favorite gift: A new Bible from Walker! Thanks dear!
- My baby sister got her first college acceptance letter. Next Fall she'll be a lil UNC-G Spartan! This made me feel old more than turning 22 did. I am so proud! Christmas wish-list: A Spartan hoodie to show my support!
- I cleaned & cut a whole chicken! [With a little help from my Dad & sweet Grandma.] I learned: that chickens get black heads [ew.] and gizzards are nasty.
- I participated in my first Beth Moore Bible Study, ever. How did I go 22 years without? I have no idea. She is lovely. I did her Measureless Love study with 19 other girls on our BCM Women's Retreat. It.was.a.blast. Everything you hear about how women act when men aren't around...is absolutely true. I am so thankful for the laughter & joy those girls bring me!
- I came across this video. The story of Jonah according to the most adorable 5 year old I have ever seen. [Its actually extremely accurate!] I know its over 7 minutes long...but if you have the time, watch it. That sweet girl will warm your heart + its a great reminder of the truths found in the story of Jonah.
- I bought the new Dave Barnes CD! Merry [early] Christmas to me! The album was purchased in preparation to see Dave LIVE on December 1st in Raleigh!
- I got caught texting while driving. Never. Again. Thankfully the policeman let me go without a ticket. But not without a glaring look of disapproval and shame...which is worse than a ticket for me.
- I caught a killer cold. Did I say killer? k i l l e r. I've been downing NyQuil like Gatorade.
Notice nothing on that list included wedding planning. I've been so busy with other stuff that, so far this month, all things wedding have been pushed to the back burner. However, this weekend I indulged myself and bought the new issue of The Knot [I say "indulge" because that sucker was $9.99!! Robbery.] But the mag is chock full of great inspiration & ideas that have sparked my motivation to keep planning.
In all the aforementioned busyness, I have been experiencing some spiritual blurriness. Meaning, I am seeing God at work in my heart & around me, but it's not all clear. I can't seem to discern exactly what He wants from me, or what my next move should be. And, to make matters worse, I'm so seemingly busy that I'm convincing myself I don't have the time to sort out matters of my heart. Thankfully God gracious & patient with me. I'm learning truths about contentment, and control...yet I still don't fully grasp those concepts. They're still a bit...well, blurry.
You see, I'm a lover of all things black & white. In fashion, photography, television...and apparently in my spiritual life. Shades of gray leave me confused and to be honest, a bit frightened. I have always thought of myself as the kind of Christian who understood and accepted that "His ways were higher than my ways" [Isaiah 55:9]...but now that I am experiencing this season in my life where not everything is black & white just how I like it, I am growing frustrated.
I am learning to be thankful for these areas in my life that seem unclear, or unfinished. There is so much to glean from times of confusion, these moments of blurriness. God's word assures me that He is not in the business of leaving things undone...
"...being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." -Philippians 1:6
It is my prayer that I will begin embracing the blurriness of the coming weeks, and learn to love a little gray...after all, over the next 7 months, I'm going to be seeing a lot of it! Gray & yellow are the new black & white. At least in this season of my life!
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