Passing.Understanding.

Can't sleep.

But that was to be expected.

It's nearly 2am. So I give you fair warning that this post may & probably will contain a few grammatical errors. And it could very possibly not make one bit of cents.

Okay. I did that one on purpose. Not that tired.

Or am eye?

Wow. Sorry. Back to my deepest darkest feelings about getting married in 2.5 days.

Things are c r a z y round here. I am doing something related to my wedding every minute of the day. Really I am. And it took a while, but I've spurred myself into this cycle of productivity...where I finish one thing, and it makes me really want to finish something else, which makes me really, really want to finish something else...you get the idea. It works and its all lovely. Except for every 3 hours or so, my stress levels spike and I decide we should elope.

Then I drink a Diet Coke and get back to work.

I did take a break from wedding work though tonight, to have one last phone date with Walker! I'm sure it won't be the very last one we will ever have...but for now, we can officially say we are .d.o.n.e. with long-distance love! No more travel size shampoo bottles. No more living out of suitcases every other weekend. No more making mix CD's to listen to on the 5.5 hour drive. And no more phone dates! Its kind of bittersweet...because our whole relationship began with one sweet phone date. But speak for the both of us when I say that our hearts are way more responsive to some face-to-face chatting. It will be such a joy to spend time together at the end of our days--in the flesh!

Tonight Walker and I were discussing that even though things are so hectic right now, we both feel such a peace about things. The kind we can't fully put into words. The kind that passes all understanding. The kind that doesn't make sense apart from its Giver. Experiencing God's perfect peace during the midst of this chaos and craziness is a big big blessing, because it has been my prayer that I would see only Christ & His goodness during the final days of this journey. And one thing I've learned, is that His Peace comes in His presence. God is here inside this stressful week with me, and He is so active. To feel him working through the gift of perfect peace is just what I need to keep me pressing on.

During these days when I am trying to recognize everything, I welcome this peace that is unrecognizable and out of place. A peace that is passing my understanding.

Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. --Philippians 4:7 [The Message]